Wow.  This is a first I don't have a lot to say today, yet I feel compelled to blog.  I feel like I have a public out there waitng on me to say something... anything. HELLO... can anyone read me?   Maybe I don't but I feel the need to place my thoughts, no matter how random, in cyberspace.  Normally I have lots of witty things to type.  Today, I have nothing to type.  I mean, I've replied to all my comments and blogged under all the cool blog titles I had at this point. 

I know... lets talk about Fat vs. Thick. Now DBH is our resident on Black Culture ( I wonder if that includes coloquial things such as this) but I am gonna hip some of you to this phenomenon.  Well I find that the word "thick" in this context is slang used by blacks to say a girl is not skinny but not exactly fat. She is thick in the thighs and probablly the hips too (it would look crazy if she was thick in just the thighs and not the hips- and I think physically impossible).  See I think(I don't know- becaue I am not white or half white- some of my best friends are white ) white ppl have two terms a girl is either thin or fat and it seems that most white women put everyone in the latter category even themselves, even themselves at 5"10 and 145lbs.  Anyway, it has long been know in the black community that it is all about SHAPE.  I mean black men are pretty much looking for the coke bottle (not a 2ltr bottle) but you know the old glass ones.  They're ok with something extra as long as its not in the wrong places ie stomach, back and shoulders.  Not all black men tolerate the extra some concern themselves with only dimes ( you know the Traci Binghams of the world).  Now this is not meant to be a generalization of anyone so I don't want any hate comments.  So I said all that to say this, I'm not quite sure what I am, actually I know by the white standards ( especially the fit, white, standards) I'm fat, maybe even like  put that sandwich down right now fat.  Now the problem is that in the black community thick is such an overly used word. I mean I don't want to be the fat chick calling myself "thick".  That is a secret fear of mine. So my friend, Glamazon ( she is the next generation) says she doesn't call herself anything, she lets the man decide.  Which is funny because that is what I do.  LOL! Men say stuff like you have a killer body (which I secretly chuckle inside because I think I am far from it, but when you let them decide then you have a killer body).  I mean I never measure myself by the crazy ass American beauty standards but I am always in search of being just a little thinner, or having just a little more definition in my arms, or coveting the great white girl legs ( you know thigh and leg portioned correctly- me I have running back thighs also known as Mary Lou Reton thighs, or Track girl thighs, or volleyball girl thighs).  Now, don't get me wrong I LOVE, I mean, I LOVE my curvy figure, it allows me to carry more weight and not look like the house full of furniture I am .  I mean at this point in my life I am concentrating on making my body stronger, which I am finding that when you do that finer falls right behind.  I try not to obsess over where I'm not, because I think in a few years I will think I was perfectly fine and why was I fretting. 

Anyway back to the Fat vs Thick.  I mean I think the problem with me is I'm somewhere in the middle.  I mean I have this shockingly large posterior which often gets lots of attention (I'm sure both positive and negative) that contrast with a very small waist at last measurement I think 14 inches smaller than my hips I know WOW!!.  So I think I live in the middle ground of thick and fat. LOL I don't know. I guess I'm fine with that. Maybe I'm not since I'm blogging about it at length.  Now my best friend says you are not fat if you don't have a gut.  So by her standards I'm thick. LOL!! Now we ( my friends and I) have something called White Fat meaning the girl is probably shapely, but she has an ass, white guys would call her fat.  Up until recently white people were afraid of the booty.  But thanks to J.LO  and Beyonce being bootylicious is now just a surgery away. I really couldn't take advantage of the whole "cool to have big lips thing", but the "cool to have a big ass thing" I am all over it. It is a commonly know fact, most white boys prefer the T to the A ( again I know this is a generalization and there are a quite a few white boys that appreciate the A- my A has garnered some appreciation from a few ). 

 Now how did the Original Glamazon get such a FAT self -image.  For most of my teenage years I thought I was fat.  I went to predominantly white schools, where my "thickness" and "phatness" were mistaken for FATNESS.  Now I look back at my high school pictures and think if I only would have know I was a brick house and not thought I was a house full of furniture.  LOL!! Well I guess I am over it now for the most part.  When I got to college I had a friend inform me I had the biggest ass she had ever seen.  Buschick also use to confirm this fact on the regular basis. The crazy thing is I never have thought of my ass as more than just that, an ass (not too big, not too small, not shockingly big, super fine or not anything actually).  Later when I was "grown" I learned someone at my job called me Butonia.  Is it really that big LOL!! Or my College Powder Puff Name was Back and my number was 44 ( I think that was a numerical depiction of the butt).  Now for those of you who think that was an insult, it wasn't.  Watch Barbershop when Ricky and Cube talk about a woman with a big ass and a big ass woman.  I fit the criteria for the first! WOO HOO. 

So I'm done rambling today.  I guess this was supposed to be therapeutic, more for me, than for you.  Maybe I've helped some one. Its just I always wonder when I see some dude lecturer the FAT girls on how they need to stop calling themselves thick.  I don't want to be the chick in Friday. LOL! Thickness is also regional I think the boys in the south like it a little thicker than the boys on the west coast, the east coast dudes dig the short and thick chicks too LOL! There really aren't any clamourings for a tall and thick chick.  They called those girls stallions, the tall and thick ones . LOL (why do men use stallion to describe a woman- a stallion is male- oh well I was a  Lady Gander when I played sports in High School-so nothing makes sense really!)

Until the next blog.  I promise no more randomness, next time I'll cover this whole topic in a blog about how I feel marginalized as a black woman by society's beauty standards and rules and how no one including the women who purvey these myths of beauty can actually measure up to the myths. See I deciced since I was being marginalized, I should concentrate on being smart.  Pretty fades, well I guess smart can fade too- pretty fades faster and with out the help of degenerative diseases.  When I grew into me, I became smart and pretty (according to a few beholders- you know beauty is in the eye of the beholder - just like thickness is.  LOL!)

 Keep it real and keep visiting because you know I am gonna make it do what it do!